.......... ive done a lot of thinking sa araw na 'to..........
may bagong theory na naman ako, i think il call it the "ben's cycle of positivity"...
ang wierd kase ng nangyayari sa schoolwork ko, save for my first F sa first filipino quiz, ang tataas ng mga test scores ko. this theory is an attempt to explain the series of events.
the theory is "with positive reinforcement produce positive results, and these results become the reinforcement to fuel yet another positive result, therefore creating a cycle of "positivity"(hehe)"

ex. 100 sa diagnostics >>> 98 sa first math lt >>> 94 sa first p6 lt >>> A sa first english paper

o dba?! the A paper is currently the motivation para simulan ko na yung Paranormal Report namin sa Filipino... sana positive result din (according to the cycle dapat ganun mangyari!) hehe! :)

ENOUGH of the wierd theory!
SERMON na naman sa LIT! grp 1 kase di masyadong handa to face the wrath of doc lulu! ako magrereport para sa grp 2, buti nalang inubos nila yung oras... hehe ... di tuloy umabot sa akin... atat na ko magreport nun! (actually breathing heavily na ko sa takot!) hehe... maghahanda ako ng sufficient report bukas para hindi naman ako gilingin ni doc! hehe

NAGBIGAY ng bonus question ang p6 teacher namin........ ang bait talaga! +5 sa lt kung nasagot ng tama....... 1 week to do pa! whoooooooooooohoooooooooo! as the saying goes, "we hate the subject, but we love the teacher!" hehe........

CONGRATS CALVS!... you are the distinguished C1 INTACT IDOL QUEST (???) GRAND QUESTOR!... you are the model example of our block! :) dahil sa iyong very unique funny answers and happy attitude!... waw! hehe

...waw! ang iksi ng SONA kahapon!.. 28 mins 33 applauses 6 ovations..
nagulat nga ako kc ang short pero relieved rin para hindi mahirap yung supposed reflection paper namin for english...
... lazy day today, kaninang umaga mdyo mabigat yung eyelids ko at gusto kong matulog pero kailangang mag-aral... ang hirap ng bagong lesson sa math, functions, medyo mahirap to kase hindi namin masyadong naaral sa hs...
... surprise! may klase kami sa filipino, kainis! biglaan! a pox on you sir yol! hehe... joke!...

gRabe!.... pagkagising ko kanina kumakanta na ko ng HALELUYAH!............. wtf?! wats happening to me?!...... na-hook na ko sa song!..........

GA ng speed kanina!........ maraming mga boring activities! buti na lang i had calvs, chik, kia, chris, and cam to keep me awake... hehe, plus two more new pals by the name of RJ and Poy.... hehe... i think that we all agree that yun best part ng assembly would be lunch! all the Yellow Cab pizza we can eat! free!.......... busog kami!

1. ($ sa physics... hehe..... ang taas ng grade ko! ang saya ko!
2. IF ONLY, maganda yung movie! napa-isip ako regarding my priorities in life........, what if...? will i...?, natouch naman siguro kaming lahat (me w/ denise, aldric, chris, shaan, janella, kia, jc, cam), but ang lakas ata ng tama kay cam and jc! sensitive pala tong si jc!.......
3. TimeZone, ang bano namin ni Aldric mag dance revo! pero hataw si chris..........

i dont want to say too much sa araw na ito, medyo affected pa ko ng movie kaya the lack of words mean that im in deep reflection...

....... ang hirap talagang mag-cram! ang sama ng pakiramdam ko this morning kase kulang ako sa tulog, nakakainis yung maikling papel!..... sana naman magustuhan ni sir jamendang yung paper ko, nagsacrifice ako ng health and well-being para matapos yung paper.....

............ at last! may good news narin ang araw ko......... 98 ang score ko sa first LT ng math! woopeeee! at least tulad pa rin ng high school ang test grades ko........ madali lang ang kolehiyo pero nakakatakot! pressure!.........

....... booring na naman ang fil kanina, ang gulo pa ng topics.... ako ang daigdig ang tula ako... yada yada yada....... nakaka-antok! change topic na pls!.......

...................... table tennis area.......................
im sorry ck
im sorry kia
im sorry cam
____ hehehehe! wapak! :)

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhh! MOnday na naman!
..... waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh! heavy assignments ang binigay kanina sa english and lit, super heavy! for english kailangan kong mag-choose ang person, place, or event to report on plus pictures pa! geez! sa lit naman, i have to read two short stories and answer a whole bunch of questions our doc lulu never checks.... ang hassle! oh well... ganyan ang buhay...
..... WOw! sa first break, nakita ko na ang new look ni cam... she looks different,... hindi na sya mukhang lola! hehe... joke!... you look GREAT cam! hehe...
LAfftrip ulit sa first break! ewan ko ba! di na ko naka review ng physics sa kakatawa... si denise kase! tatawa ng tatawa pero ang babaw ng reason! nahahawa tuloy ako! hehe... pero ok lang enjoy naman!....
sssssshhhhhiiiivver! lagot! LT sa p6! 50 pts problem solving! nakakatakot!, but.... kailangan magtiwala sa sarili... all i got to do is BELIEVE!
.... after lunch p6 lab kami... substitute teacher, ang bata pa! and may irresistable factor sya, she's a she! hehe... chalk one up for the straight guys! hehe.... di ko narinig yung name nya sooooow... pinangalanan ko nang "mistress" hehe.... grabe! sir hotness for p6 lecture, mistress sa p6 lab! wow! di ko na ma-take!
.... after lab, pinanood namin(me w/ Aldric, Regina, Denise) sina JC & Charmie mag break loose sa dance floor ng ballroom class... nasa midst sila ng entire class, and ginawa pa silang example the teacher!... ang galing nila! wow! gusto ko naring magballroom!...

sooooooooooow... ngayon tinatamad pa kong mag-aral 4 the math lt bukas, sana naman madali lang yung test...................................

Exposure trip ako kanina with calvs, jc, cam, and denise.........
whooopeeee! t'was such an adventure being in div only for the 2nd time ....... and this experience was waaaaaay better than my first one since kasama ko na blockmates ko and not my mom. hehe :) no offense ma!
all of us spent the afternoon in some unknown mall(for me that is) that was strangely called 168 shopping mall.... pagpasok ko pa lang,... WOW! ang sarap ng feeling!... slightly airconditioned kc, hehe... shopping na! ang daming stalls! ang sikip! you can actually smell the goods!...
nag-iikot-ikot kami when,... bigla na lang nawala sa sight namin yun mga girls!, and we, the guys slightly kinakabahan, were so relieved!... hehe :P ..., since wala naman kaming bibilhin na matino, we just hung out at the food court.... bonding kaming tatlo. guy talk. whoopeedoo!...
while we were making like peer councilors/ nauhaw ako, good thing there was an ever dependable refreshment stand. mura lang, 10 a cup of gulaman... may free ipis on top pa! damn!... il never buy from that stand ever ever and ever!...
after a few minutes of that oh sow gross incident! the girls finally realized our absence, and by a harsh stroke of fate, found us at the food court... hehe :) (im lying, di naman ganun ka-harsh...)
lafftrip!!!!!!! i know the reason why! pinakita nanaman kc ni cam yun JC lookalike pic nya from her younger years.... geez! keeping silent was an impossible task! laff lang ng laff! sometimes just because tumawa ang isang person for no reason at all! we're a wierd bunch! wierd but happy bunch! hehe...
we left 168 at around 3:30 pm... i, as always, passed by sm sta. mesa, but was overcome by an irresistable urge to eat goto! hehe... so i ate... i went home afterwards....

what a day!
bakit ba tuwing PE ko umuulan?!
even with an umbrella, i arrived at the covered courts soaking wet! grrr! kainis!

table tennis, my favorite sport... and yet i can't seem to perfect my backhand and forehand smashes. arrgh! luckily, magaling yung partner ko kanina sa PE, kahit marami-rami na yung mga mistakes ko, nananalo pa rin kami. whew!

though the rain stopped, and hirap pa rin maglakad, "baka malunod daw ako sa isang puddle of water," sabi ni edward. watever man! anyway, buti na lang na nakasabay ako with my good friend mike. sa san juan kmi nakatira, and he was kind enough to give me a lift, kesa naman mag-commute ako. thanks mike!

here i am, tinatamad pa ko mag-summary ng english namin ni sam, missy, and chinee. il have to do it later. the essay is about a magis seeker-Edgar Jopson. ang dami niyang nagawa in his lifetime... i hope to do more! hehe

i'm feeling a little whoozy right now. my perceptions of men and women are heavily distorted, and it's all because of that LIT prof. listening to her statements were like being run over by a boulder. all the guys in our class were unsuspecting victims being eaten alive by the jaws of feminist-ism. her words were like piercing darts, cold and cruel, and "before her i tremble"...
but my day isn't all that bad,... remove the LIT prof. and the day was happy again.

*i better set up an intellectual barrier on friday, i must arm myself with enough confidence to withstand the wrath of our lit prof. or as i call her... "DOC LULU"!

'tis a sonnet from the innermost depths of my soul... from a time of despair and anguish - to finding strength in living once more...

End of Life in Death
July 29, 2004 – August 25, 2004

Life leads me to tears each passing moment
Without a path, it goes in a circle
All it offered me is pain and torment
My harsh fate, be a melting icicle

Slowly, my will is consumed by shadows
My spirit lays stiff in a pool of fire
Sense of hope died in my arid meadows
I can hardly wait to light my own pyre

Except, I won’t burn well made of nothing
I want to leave behind ashes and smoke
My name must resound in heads of living
And face as old as that of a great oak

Truly, it’s harder to live than to die
But dying cannot make me reach the sky

- Benedict Lee
"learn and live!"

RISK
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental
To reach out for another is to risk involvement
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self

To place your ideas, your dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss
To love is to risk not being loved in return
To live is to risk dying
To hope is to risk despair
To try is to risk failure

But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing
The person who risks nothing does nothing and is nothing

They may avoid suffering and sorrow but they cannot learn, feel, change, grow or live
Chained by their certitudes they are a slave;
They have forfeited their freedom;
Only a person who risks is FREE.