finally! naayos narin ang monitor ko
grabe whatta christmas!
i just slept...

last dec. 28...
i got a peculiar request from chris to give aid in helping with a physics project
of course, the honorable mr. buenavista was also there
and since they were an hour late for a nine o'clock appointement
i, with nothing to do, started to think
"bakit kaya ako pinapunta ni chris?"
(pop!) hahaha... maybe, just maybe, she doesn't want to be alone with %&#*$%&
hahaha.... the "project" went on, i hope i somehow helped
we ate brunch sa jollibee
then went to gateway to watch "exodus"
its not a good movie
nakulangan ako sa story and action
shoulda watched ako, legal wife instead

block christmas party last night
super thanks to meggie for the wonderful shirt
ang sama ng lasa ng el hombre... i felt sick
but tinamaan ata ako nung gilbey's vodka
f*cking sh*t... hindi ko na naman macontrol yung movement ko
nadumihan tuloy yung clothes ko coz i kept falling down

dammit!!! i feel sow bad! not because of what i did, but of...
sana i walked nalang....

Santa! please save me! and please save me NOW!
make christmas come a little earlier
di ko na kaya ang mga last minute pressures ng academics
rejubilate the hearts of my teachers para after new year's nalang ipa-pasa ang lahat ng aking requirements
but... enough about menial stuff! its only academics ben... im sure you'll manage somehow.
its christmas, the most important things are family, friends, and people
the incarnate lord did not come in this wretched earth to study,
he came to LOVE!... the lucky b*stard, sana ganun rin ako hehe...

Last Friday Night Dec. 16
Yey! caroling na naman!
first we performed for the CMO, the campus ministry office
and then sa different houses na...
napaka tiring ng night
but... there are somethings that made it all worthwhile
1. one lola we sang for also sang with us! shet! ang saya-saya! it made us feel good inside
2. the best siomai i have ever eaten is in bambie's place!
3. i met my gr. 5 teacher ms. co, and still she knows me by my first name! amazing!

Last Night
christmas party ni dad
not that exciting, but i did meet some of my cousins and got to know a little better the employees of my dad

Sunday, Ngayon
Speed party sa ctc 105, ang daming kids, but bakit walang CW?!!! but still it was fun anyway
na-aliw ako with this kid gloria, first time i met her she hugged me, next time we met again she punched me, and another time binangga ako with her shoulder...
meron pa kong nakitang girls na nakakaaliw rin
1. si chris, mukhang disney princess
2. si kia, pirate na may dalawang mata
3. si alden, babaeng may goatee
4. si marco, babaeng macho na naka-pigtails
wahahahaha

afternoon
nagpakaing yun uncle ko kc house blessing ng bahay niya sa Meycauayan.
mehn! ang sarap ng food! ang lambot nung lechon, and malasa yung hipon!
i didn't finish the course kc na-busog na ko after the 4th
i met 3 new children
2 anak ng kapatid ng uncle ko
1 newborn pinsan, Monica ang pangalan, anak ng bro ng mom ko
... how i spent the afternoon...
1. nakipaghabulan sa mga pinsan ko and sis + the 2 new kids, shet! isip-bata talaga ko!... but its around children that i feel most happy... ewan ko ba! basta i had fun kahit nabanat ng konti yun birthday gift sakin ni sam!
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Happy Birthday Ben
its dec 11, 2005,
18 years since the time you hopefully put a smile on your parents faces

18 years... i feel sow old!
throughout this day, ive been looking back on the past things ive done in my life
and its nothing to brag about... i guess its time to make something out of myself...
but what will it be?

last night was cam's birthday party
happy birthday cam!
after eating dinner with my family at dencio's
bumalik sila sa astoria for an overnight stay, while elmer, our driver, and i headed to katipunan
... but, we got stuck in traffic and rain...
8+ pm, at last katipunan...
pick up chik and raven sa eliazo
order pizza sa yellow cab
pick up chris and shaan sa prince david
pick up janella sa bahay nya
pick up the pizza
buy jose
headed to cam's place
minasaccre yung pizza sa loob pa ng revo

... cam's party... 10+ pm
jc, aldric, calvs, ck, kia, reg, and sam were already there
eat and drink
drink again a few times over
played never ever have i ever
dance
take a walk
take another drink
umupo to rest and try to shake that feeling
didn't work
hilong-hilo ako
i wanted just to rest my head somewhere
di ko na recognize, but i was slapped several times on my face... did i do something wrong?
and then i felt ice on my face... are you guys playing with me?
i didn't understand what was happening, ibetter ask on monday
after visiting the comfort room several times and taking another walk
i felt better na
umuwi na kami after
i left raven sa prince david
i had a hard time taking shaan home, she really got hit hard
i took chik home na rin
and finally nakatulog ako sa revo
and the next thing i know, ginising na ko ng driver ko dahil nasa astoria na ko
i went up sa room ng family ko
changed my clothes and fell asleep

somewhere in between the night was 12 am... and i thank everyone who greeted me sa party ni cam

thanks cam and happy birthday uli!
may we have another fruitful 18 yrs again before we celebrate our 2nd 18th birthday
wahahahahahahhaha

shishkabob!
finally! nakapag-caroling na rin kmi ngayon!
its my first time to actually be part of the people singing
iba yung feeling pag nakikitang naka-ngiti yung mga kinakantahan namin
il just call it "christmas jubilation" wow!
and yung food, mehn! that's the best part! hahahaha
eating the food of other people always stimulates the appetite... hahaha
aliw din yung mga conversations sa loob ng car... i was mostly silent, but sumasakit na yung utak ko sa kakatawa in my mind...
im really looking forward to next week's session...

Life sure has taken a turn for the worse
Grabe naman to… ang gulo-gulo ng plans ko for this joyous season
This time is one of the rare occasions where I don’t know where im headed
I guess il just keep going
And believe



"Wait! ‘tis painful to see blood in your side,
What I really want is to serve you more,
Forgive me; I was just trying to hide,
I’m afraid to fully open my door"

... i just watched "hari ng sablay" kaninang hapon
comments:
1. ang ganda ni rica
2. it wasn't as funny as "40 yr old"
3. may drama involved
4. medyo mixed up yung plot
5. i can relate in some situations... :)
overall, it was good for a few laughs, but walang syang factor to make it memorable

12 pm...
(sigh) the greenhills shopping center
i haven't been there in such a long long time
the outside has greatly changed
but the inside, its still very much the same...
maraming tiangge, and maraming creepy guys na biglang mag-aalok, "boss! dvd! dvd!"
hahahaha... napapangiti na lang ako
i was supposed to meet jc and izzy there, but because of circumstance, hindi na kami nagkita...
sow instead i ate lunch alone... mehn!
sow instead i went "window" shopping sa mga tiangge alone... mehn!
sow instead linibot ko ang buong shopping center pati na yung grocery alone... mehn!
but things changed...
at around 1:40 pm i met up with amor in front of theatre mall
yey! may kasama na ko! hahaha
we went shopping sa mga tiangge
i bought some shirts and pillows as gifts for my cousins
after awhile mga 2:25, my driver was supposed to pick us up para ihatid sa ateneo for caroling practice, but 3 na sya dumating... sow... kumain muna ako sa orange julius, ililibre ko sana siya ng hotdog pero "pesto-vegetarian" na raw siya... hahaha wrayt!... sow i bought her a juice drink instead while i was eating an extremely delicious hotdog in front of her... shet! and the best pa rin yung orange julius hotdog!...
then we walked around for a while, and nakita namin si miss monique salcedo! whatta coincidence! kasama nya yung grandparents niya and her beautiful little cousin martina... takot ata sakin si lil cuz, kc everytime i approach her, tumatakbo siya... wahahahahaha!
dumating narin yung driver ko and hinatid kmi sa ateneo

3:40 pm
caroling practices
wow! gumagaling na ata kami!
most of us hindi na gumagamit ng lyrics sheet
and kinikilig na rin ako everytime we sing!
ang ganda! grabe!
i couldn't believe that our group is made out of ordinary people and their voices
napapa-ten thumbs up na ko!