IVE BEEN EATING SOFT FOOD FOR DAYS!
im tired of eating lugaw and ice cream
i wish the wound would heal faster
the dental surgery wasn't as bad as i thought
there was a bit of pain involved, but it was quite
bearable with the anesthesia...
for a few hours my mouth was numb
and drool was endlessly dripping along with oozing blood
i wanted to laugh at myself coz i looked like a special kid,
but ive to restrain myself coz it hurts everytime i chuckle or giggle
i can barely open my mouth, and my lower left cheek is still a bit swollen
the stitches are due to be removed on friday

i chickened out...
hay buhay
i was supposed to have a dental surgery to remove my wisdom teeth last saturday
but it was so sudden
i requested for a change... so
sa friday na tatanggalin yun first of the three
looks like il be home bound for a while

im noticing something really peculiar about myself lately...
i getting scared of myself...
di ko pa na-aanalayze kung bakit... pero...

somehow, someway
i derive pleasure and satisfaction
from the feelings of irritation, rage, and anger
just recently
galing naman sa pain and the feeling of being drained/tired

wtf?! ang wierd!
these emotions are what i often feel for quite some time now
could it be that due to the lack of fun and excitement in my life,
i manipulated myself to actually enjoy these dark emotions?
shucks! im scared...

wtf? now im enjoying being scared! a little help please? especially from the big three from up above... stop watching me enjoy my misery!...

yeah! birthday ni jc kagabi!
19th... hahahaha tanda na!
mehn! ang daming drinks
hindi naubos yun mga dinala ng tao
but alas
no night lasts more than a few hours
people left but i slept over
tulog na kase si dad by the time the drinking finished
i was relatively fine. di naman tumagal yun pagkahilo ko
pero first time i felt like vomiting
but fortunately hindi naman... konting water lang ang i was fine
we played smackdown vs. raw 2006
nandun na yun new guns, pero ang bagal ng gameplay
it was slow, really slow
walang excitement...

well... summer is slowly ticking away
im another summer older,
but i grew up faster than i wanted to...