im noticing something really peculiar about myself lately...
i getting scared of myself...
di ko pa na-aanalayze kung bakit... pero...

somehow, someway
i derive pleasure and satisfaction
from the feelings of irritation, rage, and anger
just recently
galing naman sa pain and the feeling of being drained/tired

wtf?! ang wierd!
these emotions are what i often feel for quite some time now
could it be that due to the lack of fun and excitement in my life,
i manipulated myself to actually enjoy these dark emotions?
shucks! im scared...

wtf? now im enjoying being scared! a little help please? especially from the big three from up above... stop watching me enjoy my misery!...