soar throat...
due to excessive shouting...
i wasn't supposed to attend the cheer rally
i was supposed to go home
but... somehow...
god's sadistic plan pushed through
i was pulled into attending the cheer rally
by a force im unaware of
is god testing me?

who do i see in the cheer rally? huh?!
who do i see?!...
Mary and Camil, that's who
Go Babble!

the cheer rally was pretty nice
although it wasn't as exciting as last time

these days,
why am i so fond of calling god sadistic?
i just imagine him/her in an invisible dimension
laughing at how silly humans are
the way i see it now, god is selfish
with all the magical powers in the universe,
he is fond of controlling humans while making
it seem that he's leaving us alone

it is often said that when people die in accidents
god WANTS TO TAKE THEM to live with him
mehn! that's like giving the gift of life, and taking
it whenever he wants to

I dont like creating problems,
especially for myself
i recognize myself to be an efficient problem solver
and i rarely turn over my problems to the sadist
way up above
but, how come i can't do anything but wish it away?
what do i have to do to step out of god's ultimate plan?
i hate having something chosen for me

it was still dark out,
i awoke in my dim world
where only the ticking of a clock pierced my ears
i lay on my back
twisting, turning
my eyes cut the thick air in all directions
but, what i yearn for, my eyes couldn't see
my hands clenched my pillow, but,
what i long for, my hands can't hold
i fall, forced myself to soothing slumber
i wanted to escape, but,
it haunted me in my dreams

i will surely miss days like this
when my mornings are vacant and dull
because of free cuts

i came to school at my usual early hour
even though im aware of the long long break ahead
12 pa ang next class ko
i finished reading my fil and SA by ten
what am i to do to kill a couple of hours
kain nalang
to my pleasure, open house ang mvp
for the week to welcome freshmen to visit
and find what orgs are about,
ang daming snacks like popcorn and chips
but since konti lang ang freshmen na pumupunta
kami-kami narin ang mga kumakain
other than eat snacks and play uno stacko,
wala na kong ginawa

Though i find the topic in fil 14 a bit interesting,
ang booring magturo ni sir mike
ang bagal ng oras, and sinagad talaga niya
yun hour and a half, i hate classes like that
mas nakakabobo para sakin yun

Hindi man lang nasabi si chris na nauna na siya
scary experience ang magcommute alone,
i avoid that as much as possible, ang lakas
naman ng loob niya
sabay kami ni shaan pumunta ng gateway

ang sweet naman ni shaan,
aside from treating me to a movie kanina
iniwanan niya kami ni chris sa gitna ng movie!
hehe... some family matters daw

Cars is a "G" movie
yes, napaka-wholesome naman
but i liked it, i liked the plot, pero
im not fond of cars... anyway, cute naman
yun animations
i love the climax of the movie, unbelievable!
halos mapaluha ako, i didnt expect that
meron ding sense of honor yun kotse
touched ako, and i mean straight to the heart

nabigla talaga ako, super watery na yun eyes ko,
and chris was laughing at me
embarrasing moment naman!
its almost as embarrasing as the time i was
watching a dvd of the last samurai, and my sister
saw me wiping tears of my eyes

some more pictures

charmie's debut was very very pretty
the performers were nothing like ive ever seen before
there was a couple dancing up a storm
and a few very heavenly singers
they're very passionate and gifted
just like charmie is

i came very early at 5 40
organizers were still fixing up the place
and i was alone until, mam ellen, the next guest showed up
we talked about stuff and other stuff until jc, calvs, and chris came
yes! im not in a conversation with someone out of my league anymore
and so, we waited and waited and waited
people came, people waited

and yes, the debuntante finally made her grand entrance
charmie looked gorgeous in her gown and tiara
and so the program started, and i was certainly entertained
unusual performances kept the people from being bored
i hope charmie was enlightened from the 18 treasures, flattered by the 18 roses, and empowered by the 18 candles

dinner was fanastic
with bread-soup-meat-pastry, hahaha
i just dont remember their exotic sophisticated names
and haba kase

hahaha! kainggit talaga si charmie,
but i see myself having a "charmed life" because nakilala ko si charmie

GRABE ang handa ni aldric last night
ang daming food, busog ako
sobrang namiss kong lumabas with them
especially at night
i cant explain it, it's just sooooo... nice
just talking and laughing and doing watever
arggh! i really really dont want our block to split next year

as of now... i like my teachers
natakot ako prematurely,
my teachers aren't as terror-like as others have described
pinasabugan na kami ng assignments today, but
im mentally prepared for whatever evil my teachers will unleash,
medyo nag-attitude adjusment ako this sem, its gonna take
alot more to break me down
my motto for now, "bring it on!"

wow! what a first day
i certainly enjoyed almost every minute of it
four teachers
i think they're pretty nice
i like all of them except
hindi ko pa masyadong nakuha yun technique ni sir aj
i think he's quite mysterious
im looking forward to seeing him teach
my 101 teacher and sir jesus are kinda funny
while my stat teacher mam tina projects a motherly image
my predictions are:
1. im not gonna enjoy stat very much,
hindi kase nagpapatawa si mam tina, or kung meron, di ako natatawa
2. im gonna have a lot of fun in theo, sir jesus is my kinda guy/gay watever,
i like the way he thinks, napaka-imaginative, and he's a pretty good insult artist
3. i going to like sir aj, kahit feel ko mahihirapan ako sa klase niya
he's scary, a bit funny, and mysterious... an interesting personality

when i feel like ive lost
an important thing forever,
let go ben, let go
others
are still there
do
your best
so as not
to lose them

whew!
bee happy party ni charmie kanina sa mga orphans ng white cross
i was kinda late so di ko naabutan yun actual start
natawa ako in my mind nung pagpasok ko, nakita ko si charmie
with this cardboard hat tas naka-upo infront of the thundering hoard of children
along with this jollibee host who only seems to have a small measure of control
over the children
nagtambay muna ako sa likod, and all of a sudden, a few kids started
approaching me... haha! ang friendly naman ng mga batang ito!
na-dehydrate ata ko sa dami ng aking sweat, it was hot with these children
crowd around me... wow, i never realized how much i miss seeing the innocence
of children... that blank stare in their eyes and the simplicity of their smile...
it's like being disconnected from the real world... napupunta ako sa ibang
dimensyon... all i see are smiles, and all i hear, giggles...
haay... wish i could spend time like this regularly...
pero hindi ko kaya, i recognize that i am in a stage wherein marami akong
ginagawa... hindi pa pwede

spending time sa likod, made me realize something
im very partial to interacting with children who are alone
or are somewhat loners... i guess i feel with them...
they're the ones who dont join in the games, they just sit and
keep to themselves... they're the ones who never get their way
and just go with the flow... there was a few na nahirapan akong
makausap at start... but being that way too, i knew just what to do
kailangan lang nila ng constant attention... to show some signs that i
recognize that they are there... like an occasional hi or a wink...
soon enough, sila na ang nag-approach sakin... and i enjoyed their company
as i hope they did with mine...
loneliness is a state wherein a person is afraid to open up because of the fear of not being accepted... ive learned that accepting a person or a child even without knowing them, makes it easier for them to overcome loneliness...

buhay naman talaga oh!
i dont mind the random number kahit ang taas
what are the chances? bleak pero meron... and i got it
okay lang na afternoon pa ng reg ko, di ako makakasama kung saan man umalis ang grupo
il just hang out sa libe

but why?! why?!
the regcom site is down
panu ko mache-check yun scheds?
how will i know kung sinu-sino ang mga teachers ko?

i watched this movie a few days ago
hindi maganda, but meron naman akong natutunan
something called the chaos theory
a series of events happen seemingly at random until
one can see the connections in the end

boy do i see the connections! no, not sa movie, dito sa buhay ko
and its not pretty...
what can i do?
absolutely nothing

nanood kami ng the omen kanina
i seems that movies ending not-so-happily are begining to erupt
the movie was not nice, hyped up lang yun ads