whew!
bee happy party ni charmie kanina sa mga orphans ng white cross
i was kinda late so di ko naabutan yun actual start
natawa ako in my mind nung pagpasok ko, nakita ko si charmie
with this cardboard hat tas naka-upo infront of the thundering hoard of children
along with this jollibee host who only seems to have a small measure of control
over the children
nagtambay muna ako sa likod, and all of a sudden, a few kids started
approaching me... haha! ang friendly naman ng mga batang ito!
na-dehydrate ata ko sa dami ng aking sweat, it was hot with these children
crowd around me... wow, i never realized how much i miss seeing the innocence
of children... that blank stare in their eyes and the simplicity of their smile...
it's like being disconnected from the real world... napupunta ako sa ibang
dimensyon... all i see are smiles, and all i hear, giggles...
haay... wish i could spend time like this regularly...
pero hindi ko kaya, i recognize that i am in a stage wherein marami akong
ginagawa... hindi pa pwede

spending time sa likod, made me realize something
im very partial to interacting with children who are alone
or are somewhat loners... i guess i feel with them...
they're the ones who dont join in the games, they just sit and
keep to themselves... they're the ones who never get their way
and just go with the flow... there was a few na nahirapan akong
makausap at start... but being that way too, i knew just what to do
kailangan lang nila ng constant attention... to show some signs that i
recognize that they are there... like an occasional hi or a wink...
soon enough, sila na ang nag-approach sakin... and i enjoyed their company
as i hope they did with mine...
loneliness is a state wherein a person is afraid to open up because of the fear of not being accepted... ive learned that accepting a person or a child even without knowing them, makes it easier for them to overcome loneliness...