My God!
Thank You Lord!
Thank you!
Thank you!
Thank you!

This is one of the happiest days of my entire life
Nanalo kami ng 3rd place sa Sagala
Wow! grabe! hahaha! natalo namin yun Agyu!
hahaha! im so happy!

Pero may isang group na hindi namin kinaya
and thats paraisong parisukat!
mehn! grabe ang lakas ng gut feeling ko na mataas sila
and they won 1st place
wow! ang galing ni louie!
hahaha!
it was kinda late na kanina and traumatizingly dangerous...
i really really wanted to drive her home, pero di ko alam yun daan
kaya hanggang gateway lang
mehn! good thing she's safe, i was praying the entire time driving back home
Thank you Lord

about 3 weeks ago, i thought that joining sagala ng mga sikat was a very bad idea... its gonna take a lot of time and effort... and im scared of performance arts
but wow! im glad we did join, it took exaggerated amounts of time and money
but it was really fun, so fun that i wish i could do it again once more with feelings
seeing people get entertained infront of me is very fulfilling
kahit hindi kami manalo, i had fun, the people had fun, what more can i ask for?
wait! i just really really think that we have a shot at winning
as in wala akong nahanap na panget in any aspect
ang saya-saya rin nung judges nung nakita ko sila while i was dancing infront

nag-nstp ako kanina, kahit hindi required
am i crazy or sumthin?
hindi, pero area is so much fun
third area ko kanina, and the many of the kids know my face and trust me already
the satisfaction is incomparable

God is real
Yes, its weird
Well, for me it is
who would have thought that
a series of unfortunate events
could lead to something so powerful, so great

i felt God last friday
he exists in some twisted reality far far from ours
he's scary, really scary

Everything that happened since morning was totally random
from studying in the libe til the footbridge accident
yet, i saw connections
it was magic
like pieces of spaghetti jumbled up together to form a spaghetti ball
but why? why did he show me such greatness
is it because of my skepticism?
nah! i dont think so
i just have this weird feeling that i am being trapped

it's so hard to lose even part of your memories,
it's as if a part of you has been ripped out
When you try to recall that memory, you see nothing but a white space
you lose your identity, you dont know who or what you are anymore
you can neither smile nor cry
you just feel... empty

haay... my first nstp area nung saturday and nothing went on as planned
i guess i overestimated the children
okei lang, i just call it bonding session
nakilala naman kami ng kids eh so 1 out of 6 objectives reached

tapos nung afternoon,
nag-gateway tas nag-eastwood
hindi pa talaga makontento si jc sa isang mall
haay

i watched ang aksidenteng pagkamatay ng isang anarkista
wow! worth every peso i payed... its exactly the kind subliminal yet frontal double negative messaging i have been wanting to see and hear, its also very hilarious
super funny nung mga facial expressions ng actors
hahaha! ang eye popper talaga yun girl, damn!
ang sexy!

i did alot of thinking last sunday night
figuratively speaking, i reached i higher level of enlightenment
as in, i think i became wiser
thanks to that special person who shared with me a different perspective
i feel so much more pleasant and relaxed

"... because it's fun!"