Wednesday...
half the week's already over
ang bilis naman
sana nga medyo bumagal yun pace ng time except for the class hours
ang bilis talaga ng panahon
somehow i regret not noticing the little things in life
what are they? i dont know, di ko naman kase pinansin
but i saw a magnificent sight yesterday while jogging around xavier ng mga 5 pm
HINDI yung mga ica girls in uniform (wowee! ang tagal ko nang hindi nakakita non!)
at tsaka yun mga maaangas na mukha ng high school xaverians na nakatambay na walang ginagawa as if waiting for girls to approach them (dream on!)

... i saw falling leaves...
with the wind against me, i felt cool
the rustling sound of branches tickled my ears
then little brown leaves softly fell before me
like tears of the dark gloomy sky

*it rained shortly after

anyways, on to the more disturbing matters
my dreams...
not goals and ambitions
not fantasies or wishes
but the dreams you get when you sleep, and there were two of them

in the two consecutive dreams, i was there, also
in both dreams, a certain fast-paced beauty was also there
... in the first dream...
we were eating a super duper triple extra large order of french fries in mcdonalds
and i believe i commented that it was nice and crispy
then i woke up
...in the second dream... (which i had this afternoon)
we were a in car and it seems that i drove her home
and i saw her brother in a porch listening to an ipod/mp3/cd player (im not sure)
then i played with her 8 year old sister (does she even have an 8 year old sis?)
and then i woke up

after the first dream, i didn't react much
but after the second dream, i began to wonder
what could it mean?
im wierded out
hopefully it was merely my subconscious playing mind games with me
if not, maybe it will unfold in the near future

i spent my first break in the library researching for my topic in filipino, the effects of computer games to masculinity... i found this great book called, "Kings, Warriors, Magicians, Lovers" i only finished reading the kings and warriors part... it's about men having a all of the four characteristics but some are just more developed than others... i got to the warriors part and... i read a logical line that inspired me, and snapped me back to reality... it says, dont think too much, coz thinking leads to doubt, doubt to hesistation, and hesistation to inaction... it told me, "if you're confident then just do it" from now onwards, il try to unleash the warrior within.

hmmm...
happy (then again, maybe not too happy) valentine's day

good news
the guys in our block surprised the girls with roses!
hahaha, super saya na makita yun mga smiling surprised faces ng mga girls
and yes, masaya rin kaming mga guys coz somehow we accomplished what we set out to do, and thats to show the girls that we love and appreciate them...

not-so-good news
argggggggh! nucking futs!
sabi ko sa sarili ko kagabi several times, "dont make a fool out of yourself"
bakit ba feeling ko i did?
hay, grabe naman, all the best laid out plans didn't work out...
kase naman ang hina mo ben! when ya saw her, nakalimutan mo na all the words you were supposed to say.
what do i have to do? nothing seems to work

math lt!
it was harder than i thought i would be
inubos ko yun oras, i finished with only a couple of minutes left, di ko na review lahat
hopefully tama naman most of my answers

filipino
still quite boring
hardly interesting yun mga tinuturo nya

lunch
didnt eat lunch
i played ping pong with my old pal hubert
ang fun parin mag table tennis
sayang, bumulok ako
i not as good as i used to be
i forgot na how to do a smash

PE
ang daming nagcut sa team namin
kaya di natuloy yun mini games
practice nalang kanina
i didnt do well
out of probably ten shots
isa lang yun pumasok
terrible, simply terrible

*on the way to the LRT with calvs
we met a pleasant surprise
nakakainis nga lang that she didnt say bye when she got off
brrrrrr! ang cold naman.

kaninang umaga mum and i woke up at 6 and went jogging around xavier
the morning air was exhilirating
ang sarap mag breathe in
i only survived 3 rounds and my feet quit
umuwi na kami ni mum
i didn't wear my watch, but when i got home 7 30 na pala
we were walking/jogging for about an hour na pala

kaninang hapon
Nagcelebrate ng 19th birthday yun pinsan ko
ang daming friends niya na pumunta from dlsu and her high school
when most of her guests left, i played basketball with my male cousin, my brother, and my uncle
i went home before 6

yesterday, na-realize ko sa area how much i miss interacting with the kids
its so much fun
ive been skipping the past couple of areas to have fun, but kahapon, my throat hurt because of laughing so much
the kids are still ever so friendly, and of course makulit, especially vince...
i love those kids, they're the personification of the statement "men are kids at heart"
and there is this cute little girl named czarina, she really catches my eye, para siyang little sis ko nung bata pa... she has such beautiful eyes and when she smiles, with her front teeth missing, i feel joy in my heart...