Hey! New Year na naman
It seems that the year changes periodically
sayang super fun last year
undoubtedly my greatest year ever

Compilation of last year's italicized words:
so this is what poverty feels like, utterly frieless
i wonder what next week has in store for me?
Failure!for the nth time,Failure!
When I first saw her, my body lost strength, When I first saw her smile, questioned was I, Felt like sitting next to her, at arm’s length, She was so beautiful, could that be why?
dont make a fool out of yourself
with the wind against me, i felt cool, the rustling sound of branches tickled my ears, then little brown leaves softly fell before me like tears of the dark gloomy sky
fine... ignore the flames of a still bright sunbut when the cold stillness of the manmade moonfinally eclipses...the passion that fuels shall no more be found...
"without you, i am but a mindless corpserising, walking, yearning for a piece of that heartonly to fall again dead still..."
as i look up upon the pitch black sky i see the face of an angel meant to sing me to sleep and make me dream again
lulubog muna ako out of existence
relishing my relinquished...
wtf? now im enjoying being scared! a little help please? especially from the big three from up above... stop watching me enjoy my misery!...
and drool was endlessly dripping along with oozing blood
loneliness is a state wherein a person is afraid to open up because of the fear of not being accepted...
when i feel like ive lost an important thing forever,let go ben, let go
it was still dark out, i awoke in my dim world, where only the ticking of a clock pierced my ears, i lay on my backtwisting, turning, my eyes cut the thick air in all directions, but, what i yearn for, my eyes couldn't see, my hands clenched my pillow, but, what i long for, my hands can't hold, i fall, forced myself to soothing slumber, i wanted to escape, but, it haunted me in my dreams
these days,why am i so fond of calling god sadistic?
my unconscious is slowly revolting, i cannot repress it anymore
the lonely traveler can only look, and dream
"... because it's fun!"
it's so hard to lose even part of your memories, it's as if a part of you has been ripped out, When you try to recall that memory, you see nothing but a white space, you lose your identity, you dont know who or what you are anymore, you can neither smile nor cry, you just feel... empty
Thank you Lord
can't believe that i let 1/20 of myself just deteriorate, blame it on those 19 left, blame it on me
god loves me
-reality was better than fantasy--living life is more fun that dreaming of it-
i am lost
or do i reach out and accept it, no matter what consequences?
most of what my heart desires, god gave
"its not that im gonna hate God, im just gonna dislike him for a while"
he never gave me reason to doubt him anymore
i hide in my closet, untouched by the rays of light, i sit in there like a child, teary eyed and blubbering
what if i miss?then go shoot again
im just gonna kneel here in front of you until you finally take pity on me and strike me with lightning
He is here, and no pain nor sorrow will last
"I found love beyond all reason"

* these quotes are but a glimpse... too see but never fully understand... i sight of what's beyond, but to appreciate what's now