Waaaah!
Grabeh tong friday na to
Ibang klase
Sorry na God!!!
I'm very sorry!
I learned the lesson you taught me na

First - Di ko nakuha ang grade ko sa Dev Psy, ang tagal kase ng lunchbreak ni mam annette
Second - I took a wrong lane to Robinson's kaya i got lost and ended up way down in guadalupe near the toll entry towards alabang, and then a few more wrong turns, wow! road trip ako ng mag-isa along EDSA... kumusta naman yon
Third - Dahil don, pinahintay ko ng mag-isa si Leanne for about an hour... I HATE being late... It bothers people tuloy
Fouth - Yeah! Nanood kami ng TMNT! waw! ang ganda! na-touch ako dun sa part na biglang naging humble si Raphael! waw! that's so much pride to swallow... kaya ko kaya yun? wahaha!
Fifth - Yeah! Youth Service! I Love It! Love ko 'to! wahaha! it is WITHOUT A DOUBT the best place to be during Friday nights!

Ever felt like something died inside of you?
It's like someone or something sucked the life out of you
and now, that's just it
what's left
darkness

So many things you can do to cover it up
So many lies, deceit
Truth left unspoken

Truth kept silent
Truth
Can you even recognize it?

I talk too much...

pinagsabihan na ako ni God kagabi
something something "in the multitude of words, sin is not lacking"

ayan
so now...

i'm gonna keep silent

Wow. Whatta nice day.
Ang hirap talagang makalaban si louie sa mind games, or intellectual battles, or mental challenges, or watever.
obviously
i was outclassed... paren
pero, minsan ko lang naeexercise yun utak ko so okei lang mapahiya
and... may napapansin ako
i think i'm improving
kahit papaano may nasasabi na ko
unlike dati, stumped from the start

feel ko talaga magandang defense na yun maiisip ko eh
until
roar!!!
she quoted the Bible
wala na
walang defense against that
kahit demonyo o si satanas nababara ng Word of God eh
wahahaha!
not fair! di ko pa memorized yun Bible

Oh, and ang fun ng one2one namin ni ricky
ang dami kong natutunan
sobrang inspiring!
wah!
may spiritual gift kaya ako from God?

REVEALED THROUGH THE SPACE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE TWO GIRLS TALKING IN FRONT OF ME

Yehes!!! This is the shit mehn! I don't like using foul language anymore, but ganun yun tama eh!
wahahahahahaha! Ibang klase talaga ang company nina abi and bea, they don't really notice me at all. wahahaha! pero still, naclear up yun cluttered head ko. Anu yon special powers nila? It all started...

Balik sa usual, magbubuhay loner na naman sana ako, i bought food na sa caf, and i thought i was gonna eat in solitude, but hey,
ayun, nakita kong naglalakad papuntang som mall sina abi and bea
nagpaalam ako kung pwedeng makiextra, and pumayag naman... thanks

skip

skip

they were practicing Spanish for abi's speaking test, and i was eating,
and then, nakuha na nila yun burgers nila and i was still eating. wahahaha! ang takaw talaga
they finished their food already, but still... kain paren ako ng kain

ayun, eto na yun boring part
i was finished eating na, but the two were talking so
OP ako
hahaha!
syempre wala naman akong alam tungkol sa nakaraang buhay nila diba?
so ayun, and then they decided to practice spanish na uli
and still, wala parin akong masingit na word kaya nag muni-muni nalang ako
it's almost as if nagzone out ako
and they *poof*
revelation, i don't know if its from God but where could it have come from?
i don't think i could have realized it all on my own
so aattribute ko kay God yun
parang tinanong ako

kumusta ka na dyan?
obviously, in my heart i answered, here i am with the girls na favorite ko yun company, but still, i was terrible...
bakit naman?
kase i know that no matter how much ***, *** would probably ****, they are ***, and i ***
well, what does that tell you?
that ***, and *** yun best mo for me is someone who ***, who would ***. is that even possible?

anu ba, I'm God. sabi nya

nightmares

never have i had such terrible visions
waking up was such comfort
soaked with sweat but free from the trap of my mind
only
to sleep again
and incur what i hoped would not pass again
i woke up again
sweaty teary
i gave up
the hurt is great too while im awake
insane as well while asleep
what do i do
sleep again in hope
but no!
it still haunts me
and over again
until finally
morning.
the brightness of the sun
shines away the darkness of my mind
but i was weak
so very weak
i couldn't move
i was petrified

as i sleep again tonight
i hope its over
but.
it will not be so
at least
for now

it's like high school all over again
its as if destiny just had to teach me a lesson twice
its as if once was not enough
its as if i wanted to suffer again

only now
even though
everything
was shattered right before my very heart
something remains
someone remained
He will never go anywhere
and will remain in my heart
though my head is insane
i still live through the heart
and i can bear it
i will bear it
and learn to choose
again.