nightmares

never have i had such terrible visions
waking up was such comfort
soaked with sweat but free from the trap of my mind
only
to sleep again
and incur what i hoped would not pass again
i woke up again
sweaty teary
i gave up
the hurt is great too while im awake
insane as well while asleep
what do i do
sleep again in hope
but no!
it still haunts me
and over again
until finally
morning.
the brightness of the sun
shines away the darkness of my mind
but i was weak
so very weak
i couldn't move
i was petrified

as i sleep again tonight
i hope its over
but.
it will not be so
at least
for now

it's like high school all over again
its as if destiny just had to teach me a lesson twice
its as if once was not enough
its as if i wanted to suffer again

only now
even though
everything
was shattered right before my very heart
something remains
someone remained
He will never go anywhere
and will remain in my heart
though my head is insane
i still live through the heart
and i can bear it
i will bear it
and learn to choose
again.