Roar!
First time in my life!
For the first time in my life!
im gonna rant
i guess i was influenced by louie on this one

Roar!
i hate the strong rains!
i hate it soooooooo much!
i despise it!
i abhor it!
i rebuke it with vengeance!
i hate it soooooooooo much!
hate! hate! hate!

i hate schoolwork
i hate projects
i hate experiments
i hate research work
i hate philosophy
i hate theology
i hate experimental psych
hate! hate! hate!
they are soooooooooo complicated!
they are making my mind crash!
i hate school
i hate ateneo
i hate third year
i hate college
i hate meetings
i hate group reports
i hate everything
i hate this moment in my life
i hate what im turning into
i hate this negative attitude
i hate it
i hate it so much
i hate having to go through so much stress and suffering
i hate having a hard time fixing my problems
i hate being inadequate
i hate being inferior
i hate being incapable
i hate being able to be a great person but so far from it
i hate not being the person i should be
i hate not being able to understand why i have to go through this
i hate it
i hate it sooo much

*i meant everything i said here, but emotions pass... in that moment, i was angry, and i let it consume me...

now that i have boiled down, there's really only a few things that bother me
1. i want to be a great person, a mighty man of God... but it doesn't come easily, i have to work really really really hard to deserve it
2. i have lots of friends, but i still feel lonely oftentimes
3. i love certain people a bit too much, and it's causing me pain... a lot of pain


i see a pothole on the ground
i know its there
i know its dangerous
i try to veer away from it
but it's as if my feet were drawn to it
i step in it
i stumble
i fall
and it hurts